Need Lots of Prayers!

Today is a pretty big interview, well an important one anyways to me! I'm super super anxious about this one! I haven't been there yet, but I already know I want it! So please computer world......pray for me!!!!!!!! This just be my way out and my way back to happiness and the person I used to be!

I think I have decided to do my first speech for school (which is due 1 week from tomorrow) on the conspiracy of if we ever actually went to the moon. Divine has told me quite a bit about it, but I'm gonna have to do some super quick research. I think that should probably interest most people. I'm saving my speech about magic for the next one! hehe I dreaded this class and put it off for so long and now I hate to admit this to myself, but it's almost kind of fun now!

I have started performing this disappearing banana trick at our mall shows now. I did for the 2nd time on Thursday at the mall. It's like an instructional cd that plays telling the magician what to do, it's really meant for a girl to do because it's like a cutesy trick. Anyways.......I'm on stage following what the CD tells me to do. In one part he tells me to stick the banana into the little pouch I made and squish it up and then I straighten out the cloth and the banana is supposed to disappear, only this time the banana did not disappear. It went PLOP.......right on the floor! Squished up nasty banana just laying there, so lonely, on the stage floor, with frightened me just standing there wondering what in the hell to do! I just looked at the audience and shrugged my shoulders, picked up my nasty banana and cloth and started to put it back in my box so I could get the hell off the stage. Then John (our magician friend in charge of the show) gets on stage and makes me do the freakin trick again, after all of the embarrassment I have just been through! I stick the banana in the pouch again, squeeze the hell out of it, and viola, it disappears! whew! I was so pissed at myself because I hate to be a failure, but according to Divine, I handled it very well and thanks to John it actually looked like it was supposed to happen that way. Sometimes I think I really am just meant to stand there and look pretty and hand the props over to the real magician when needed.